Oh the tangled web we weave with the silk threaded thoughts within our own minds
thoughts that keep us in sleepless wonderings
slumberwalking while fully aware
with a heart that loves deep
I built bridges bound with excuse stained
wood grain
tied with hope’s rope
over burning rivers
only to cross over to the other side of you
I set the flames
smoked the embers of faithless acts of kindness
&
beauty betrayed by want
I tore the stitching of my heart
nearsighting the truth
stretching its distance too far for the naked eye to see
all that mattered was the love for you…living in me
deep within its solitude
I am certain it will remain;
far beyond today
tucked away
silently cared for by the trickle of sweet memories
that escaped the ruins of me dangling in wait
for you to love me too
‘one day’ bends its knee in honor
with a promise
to never again speak of this which echoes redundant soaked desperation
that now only embarrasses my dignity
I fought you
so passionately
questions so loud… the answers I could not hear
I apologize… to you
more so to myself
for prolonging the mourning deep into night’s blinding darkness
where the shadows of my words will blend in
&
disappear
my last piece
at last peace
you have always warned me what my desire writes - yours cannot read
untangling myself from silk threaded thoughts of a dream lost
&
never found
finally… I believe you
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